Twas a tale of ep- baaad proportions. How bad was it?

Try making like 1.5litres of applesauce to make a tiny spread of 18 full sized muffins.

I ended up making like 2 batches of mini muffins and some hear shapes ones. So altogether that's 12 heart shapes muffins and about 40mini muffins.

I still had about half of it left over. Errrrr.

Weeeell. On the bright side, the one good thing about working with a whole office of bottomless pits has its merits.

I get to bake all I like without having to eat all of them or force them on my parents. They'll disappear on their own, like magic! ^_^

I left some of these in the pantry this week and Val said after lunch:

"Oh we were lunching and we discovered them on the table so.... Your muffins were really nice!"

There was only one muffin left.

And that's pretty much it! I'm off Guilin this weekend :D

Uhm. When I goggled it, only pictures of mountains came up. So it guess it must be pretty scenic.

Byebyebye!

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An unknown quantity moving at an unknown speed and distance.

Maybe I've been putting off writing this for a while. But after all the verboseness and philosophical nonsense (in my head) has been boiled down, it comes down to this.

If I ever had first relationship, it would be out of curiosity to find out what this thing called love is really all about. I would want it to be fun, without having to worry about the consequences. I have no delusions of getting married or living happily ever after in a first relationship.

But I don't want to be 26 relationships in, hollow and disillusioned either.

And while I don't claim to be an aunt agony or expert, what I have learnt from my very little non-experience is that (and this may be a bit blunt):

- love, in a way is learning to put others before yourself even in decision making. (this is definitely applicable outside of relationships, but I think the pressure is probably higher in one)

-I'm not sure if it was because I could never get a grasp of how I felt but... It was certainly not mind blowing or exciting or anything like the movies or titanic. Kind of just comfortable. So in a way, I finally understood way Chauz and Jason meant when they said that dramas (-coughs- Korean/jap dramas) are unrealistic.

- Can one love a person, but not enough to... See a long term future? Sadly, I think the answer is yes. "I love you and I'm perfectly happy as we are. But I can't see myself marrying you. Ever."

- is there such a thing as love at first sight? I don't know. But there is something something called chemistry, or the lack of. If I had to describe this... It would be like feeling a certain affinity or kinship. I think I would much prefer this over someone that looks good.

And that's really all I know. I can't quantify or say I really understand too much about it. I don't know how to find it. Is it something that happens or does it have to be pursued? I'm starting thinking that may be it's the the latter in which case I would be in trouble since my social skills are limited to talking (nonsense) and cracking jokes.

What if I'm ... Autistic? Because uhm how do I put this. I think I'm about as good a conduit of emotion as a pot-- actually potatoes are a pretty good conductors of electricity. I'm about about as good a conduit of emotions as a block of wood is of electricity :| I've often found myself asking "now how shall I react to this? ...shall I crack a joke?" and I've always had an aversion to physical contact -thinks of Geraldine's reference to love & aspegeres "I love you but don't touch me!!"- (I think I have only encountered one person who has failed to notice).

Meh. If I'm autistic at least I can tell jokes. Even if I'm totally KY. <-- and one of the other reasons for this little autism spew was this morning's sermon on the imperatives of being connected (sans wifi and all kind of gadgetry). Sadly in this sense I've always been rather disconnected.

(on a non-related note, I'm thinking life is probably something that needs to be pursued. I should probably set some goals and move towards achieving them instead of being so wishywashy about everything. Looking at my brother's determination makes me wonder if I'm wasting my life just drafting along ._.)

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Today will mark a day in history where L'ar-en-ciel held their first concert in Singapore.

It will also be a day when:

-hyde makes a somber declaration that he was NOT defeated by "the singapore sling"

-ken asks about the origins of tiger balm. And we discover that on their first trip here.... They went to mustaffa ._. And uhm ken bought 7 (?) pink Merlions for tetsuya.

-I find out that l'arc-en-ciel has been around for 20 years! That would mean I would have been x, when they were founded! Gasp!

Which brings me to the conclusion that..

-THEY CAN'T BE HUMAN!! None of them look like the middling uncles that they ought to. Be.

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Today I answered an alter call. I didn't get prayed for, but that's okay. After all it's a transaction between God and I.

The sermon was about many things, but it was point 3 in particular that spoke to me. About a transformation. Making things that I know more real, than just knowledge in my head. And how do find out if we know and understand what we've just learnt???

That's right. It's test time. Bring it!

And there's also learning from trials and tests.

And maybe I'm making a joke out out of the following examples but hey still be grateful for the small things right?

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Today dubs had first lunch after church with new cellies... Except that I forgot to bring all my money, ATM card and credit card home this weekend so Valerie paid for my lunch.

And all was well until the next moment when I turned around with a tray full of food and slipped on tray left on the ground ._.

1) I have cellies that care :)

So there I was sitting on the ground staring at our lunch (Murphy's law prevails! Valerie's bowl flipped 180 and everything landed on a neat pile on the ground). A cellie passing by helped picked me up and brought us back to the table and bought us some food.

2) I think I finally figured out...

Why I has a big bum for. It helps make me more accident-proof. Who could possibly be more klutzy than me!? With that force of me landing on the ground, without a bum I probably would have broken something :|

And I'm quite pleased that none of the food landed on my new WHITE jeans. Nor did I acquire new stains from sitting on the ground. Yay! Tiny victory.

3) work

During dinner we received quite alot of interesting news... Dundundun! I think testing time starts now.

Or is it maybe... Time to leave?

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I've never been a believer of friend. No matter how much rationalizing or psychoanalyzing went it into it, I never could believe how a little boy's fear of horses could be construed as a fear of his father. It just seemed ridiculous.

And yet, lately I find myself wondering...

I've always had a tendency to dream of fooD i when go to bed hungry. It started off in high school, dreaming of buying a juicy drumstick from KFC during lunch only to have the bell ring as I'm paying.

Then I graduated to dreams of buying cupcakes made of jello, of making the world's most beautiful omelette or a mouth watering stack of pancakes.

But it's almost always the act of buying or making delicious food, never the act of eating. Save for the one dream where I ate literally on the plate, leaving the steak for the last... Only to wake up before I could eat it.

And all this makes me wonder. Did Freud really have a point, and is there any truth in dream analysis? Just what does it mean anyway?

... Could all this mean that I'm deprived of ... Something??

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This month I made an ultimatum with God. I think in the old days, I would probably have been struck dead by bolt of lightning ... Or something to that effect. Thankfully, ye olde days it ain't. So we'll see how it goes :p

I intend to keep up my half of the bargain! ... For as long as my attention span can hold (and hopefully a bit more).

What did I wish for? それはないしょう~!
I can't tell you that. That's just not the way it works heh.

-poof!-

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